Yo Yo Honey Singh, born on March 15, 1983, turns a year older today. A sensational new rapper just two years ago, with a number of hit songs such as Lungi Dance, Angrezi Beat, Blue Eyes, Sunny Sunny and many more, one day he suddenly disappeared. Honey’s unexpected absence from B-town sparked many controversies and a lot of questions. While some claimed that Honey was in a rehabilitation centre, getting treated for drug abuse, others said that he was in hiding because he had had a spat with superstar Shah Rukh Khan. (ALSO READ: Yo Yo Honey Singh opens up about his ‘phase of darkness’; plans to pen down poems now)

More than a year after his absence from the mainstream, with only a few songs released in between, Yo Yo is back and that too with a bang. The rapper is playing the lead actor in a Punjabi film, Zorawar, which shows the singer performing some high-octane action sequences. On his 34th birthday, Yo Yo opened up about his absence from the B-town circuit to a leading daily. Honey made some shocking revelations in his interview, which must have left his fans in dismay, but he wanted to confess anyway. Here’s what Yo Yo Honey Singh had to say:

Yo Yo Honey Singh revealed that he was suffering from bipolar disorder and found it difficult to face even four to five people at a time. A person who would fearlessly perform in front of 20,000 people couldn’t stand the sight of even a few people. “This is the first time I am talking about it as I want my fans to know what happened to me. Nobody knows about this, and I wanted to tell the world myself, not through a spokesperson. The last 18 months were the darkest phase of my life, and I wasn’t in a state to talk to anyone,” said the singer. (ALSO READ: Honey Singh’s Zorawar trailer crosses 1 million views!)

Honey Singh said that he knew everything about the speculation about his absence, but was waiting for the right opportunity to tell the truth. Honey revealed, “I know there were rumours that I was in rehab (for drug overdose), but I was in my Noida house throughout. The truth is I was suffering from bipolar disorder. It went on for 18 months, during which I changed four doctors, the medication wasn’t working on me and crazy things were happening. I must confess that I was bipolar and an alcoholic, which aggravated the condition.”

Honey further revealed that his initial medication failed to help him recover and thus he kept changing doctors. Yo Yo added, “It was scary. One year had passed and I wasn’t responding to medicines, until a fourth doctor from Delhi treated me. At one point, I thought I would live in this darkness forever. I had cut myself off from everyone. I didn’t come out of my room, forget stepping out of the house. I had a beard and I didn’t get a haircut for months. For someone who has performed in front of a crowd of 20,000, I was scared of facing 4-5 people. That’s what bipolar disorder does to you.” (ALSO READ: Happy Birthday Honey Singh! 7 best songs by the King Of Rap)

Shocking, isn’t it? But, now Yo Yo Honey Singh is perfectly fine and is all set to beat his competitors with new songs. He will also be performing at the Times of India Film Awards (TOIFA) 2016 in Dubai on March 18. On his birthday, we send our best wishes to the singer.