Bollywood star Irrfan Khan, who was last seen in Hindi Medium alongside Pakistani actress Saba Qamar Zaman, had shocked his fans after he posted a tweet about his rare disease, revealing that he has been diagnosed with NeuroEndocrine Tumour. While we have been hoping the actor to recover soon and Irrfan, who is battling the disease, gives us a glimpse into his ongoing journey; the actor says that he has realised one thing, which is “Uncertainty is the only certainty.”

Speaking of one of the terrifying hospital visits, the Piku actor, in a statement to Bombay Times, recalled the conversation with his sn, where the actor said, “The only thing I expect from ME is not to face this crisis in this present state. I desperately need my feet. Fear and panic should not overrule me and make me miserable,” further adding, “That was my INTENTION. AND THEN PAIN HIT. As if all this while, you were just getting to know pain, and now you know his nature and his intensity. Nothing was working; NO consolation, no motivation. The entire cosmos becomes one at that moment – just PAIN, and pain felt more enormous than GOD.”

Further speaking to the daily, the actor said, “As I was entering the hospital, drained, exhausted, listless, I hardly realised, my hospital was on the opposite side of Lord’s, the stadium. The Mecca of my childhood dream. Amidst the pain, I saw a poster of a smiling Vivian Richards. Nothing happened, as if that world didn’t ever belong to me.
This hospital also had a coma ward right above me. Once, while standing on the balcony of my hospital room, the peculiarity jolted me. Between the game of life and the game of death, there is just a road. On one side, a hospital, on the other, a stadium. As if one isn’t part of anything which might claim certainty – neither the hospital, nor the stadium. That hit me hard.”

“I was left with this immense effect of the enormous power and intelligence of the cosmos. The peculiarity of MY hospital’s location – it HIT me. The only thing certain was the uncertainty. All I could do was to realise my strength and play my game better. This realisation made me submit, surrender and trust, irrespective of the outcome, irrespective of where this takes me, eight months from now, or four months from now, or two years. The concerns took a back seat and started to fade and kind of went out of my mindspace,” Irrfan added.

Irrfan is one of the few Bollywood actors, who has been on the rise on global platforms. Not just in India, but the actor has wowed audiences all over the world with his impeccable acting. No doubt we all miss watching him on the big screen. Talking about prayers helping him to get better and feel better, the actor told the daily, “Throughout my journey, people have been wishing me well, praying for me, from all over the world. People I know, people I don’t even know. They were praying from different places, different time zones, and I feel all their prayers become ONE. One big force, like a force of a current, which got inside me through the end of my spine and has germinated through the crown of my head.” ALSO READ: Shoojit Sircar Confirms Irrfan Khan Responding Well To Treatment, To Star In Udham Singh Biopic

Irrfan, who is currently in the US for his treatment, is on the road to recovery. Recent reports suggest that October director Shoojit Sircar has roped in Irrfan Khan for his next. The filmmaker, in a statement to Mumbai Mirror, had said, “I’ve been speaking to both Irrfan and his wife (Sutapa Sikdar), he’s responding well to the treatment and trying to cope with the knowledge that he’s battling NeuroEndocrine tumour by treating the recuperation in Europe like a short and unexpected holiday.” We wish Irrfan Khan a speedy recovery. Watch this space for further updates.