Everyone is finding it difficult to come to terms with Sridevi‘s untimely demise. Initially, reports indicated that the actress died due to cardiac arrest but the forensic reports stated that she actually died due to accidental drowning. Tests also found traces of alcohol in her blood. While the media and people at large are speculating about how she died and what really transpired in the hotel room on Saturday 24, 2018, it is getting increasingly hard to accept the truth of her sudden death. Filmmaker Ram Gopal Varma, who worked with the legendary actress in two films, Kshanakshanam and Govinda Govinda, is one who cannot come to believe that the actress, with whom he was so smitten, is no more. In a letter titled, My Love Letter To Sridevi’s Fans, he disclosed details of the kind of difficult life Sridevi lived, contrary to popular belief.
He gave a detailed account of how difficult Sridevi’s life got after her father’s death. He wrote, “I know her life from the time I met her . I saw with my own eyes how her life was like a bird in the sky till her father’s death and then became like a bird in a cage due to her overprotective mother. In those days actors used to be only paid in mostly black money and due to fear of tax raids her father used to trust friends and relatives and everyone of them betrayed her the moment her father died. Coupled with this the ignorant mother made many wrong investments in litigated properties and all those mistakes combined made her almost penny less by the time Boney came into her life.” Moreover, he said that Boney too had huge debts and couldn’t offer her more except for a shoulder to cry on.
In this letter he also disclosed Sridevi’s struggles in her personal life, which she faced at the hand of her mother and sister and disclosed how she lived under the constant fear of having her deepest insecurities revealed. He also mentioned about her constant need to look perfect, defying age by undergoing several cosmetic surgeries, which never let her live in peace. “Sridevi is actually a child trapped in a woman’s body ..she is naive as a person, but suspicious because of her bitter experiences which is not a very good combination,” he wrote. Click here to read the full open letter.